No more pills. Too much ice cream. 7/2/21

Today, or actually last night was the last night that I had to forcibly put, (almost shove) Charley’s pills down her throat. She is done with both antibiotics, one for her initial injury day 1, and a second one for her surgery(ies) and extra Trazodone to keep her “mello” . And codeine. Which knocked her out completely. I got to catch up on my emails and started to tackle spring cleaning! YAy!!


I managed to keep her in a two week cone imprisonment. It was hard but the thought of a third surgery made me quite vigilant that thing stayed on. A couple of times she was able to pop it off of her head by a variety of technics. She’d scrape it against trees and bushes, roll around furiously on the grass and shake her head back and forth until the tabs started loosening. The last few days she was a Bonafide Houdini master of the Cone.

After disappearing in the trees, she came back coneless.

I, too, became a CONE MASTER. I found out that cute little bow that was intertwined and laced on the outside of the cone she came home with was not just a cute fashion accessory to make her feel better, but it served a purpose. It secured the cone around her head in a way where at least it was an obvious scene when she would try to get it off. The bow changed a few times, though, to some twine or string or a solo shoe string. ANYTHING to keep it secure.


I found that a tie-strap, or whatever they are called, is the way to go. ZIP TIES! That’s what they are called! They don’t cost much, easy to attach, hard to get out of, and I unexpectedly got creative burst of ideas, silly or out of necessity or me from those things. PLUS, the zip ties I happened to find in the bottom of my “tool drawer” in the kitchen were clear, which matched her clear cone splendidly.


Back to the pills. “Everybody” made it sound so easy. “Just hide it in her food.” Yeah right. “Have you tried mixing it with wet food?” That was a “DUH DER DOY!” Butter? Yes, at first that worked. Until she was able to pocket the pills on the side of her cheek and roll them around and spit them out. A chalky and buttery, slobbery mess would slide down the inside of her cone and land at the base of her neck. GROSS.

I decided to try ice cream. Partly because I was really craving some, and the rest because she always eyeballs me when I’m eating it, and maybe she may forget if I shoved a pill in the middle of a mouthful of ice cream. (Plus, that was her first taste of human food at 6 weeks old. BIG MISTAKE)

Unfortunately, AMAZON FRESH makes ordering food fun and almost as impulsive as going to the store hungry. Those 2 hour delivery times are almost as good as instant gratification, but with a bonus.

It feels like I’m getting a present.

Turns out the ice cream selection in Amazon Fresh is large. Very very large. And look,, they have BEN & JERRY’S.

Awhile ago I got hooked crazy style with Ben and Jerry’s FroYo. I haven’t been able to find it lately, and it was frustrating me. It’s the Ben & Jerry’s Cherry Garcia FROYO I love. It has just the right sweetness yet not the sweet sugary taste I find with their ice cream that’s a bit too strong for me. They also have a Chocolate FroYo and a Strawberry Cheesecake but those I find too sweet as well. If the Cherry Garcia comes back(FroYo) I’m picking up extra stock. I’ve turned a many people on to the FROYO. CHERRY GARCIA FLAVOR.


I decided to try the non GMO version thinking maybe it was labeled differently now and it had pulled up when I typed in the keyword “Ben & Jerry FroYo Cherry Garcia”.

It wasn’t even close. It wasn’t firm like the FroYo nor did it have the popping flavor. It seemed kinda, I dunno, watered down. Slushy way too quick. Runny. Cherries too big.

But, I’d ordered two of them, plus coffee ice cream, mint and chocolate chip, a couple different brands of vanilla bean, Mango Bars, and for some weird reason that huge pail of Neapolitan ice cream that cost only 5 dollars. I was on a roll. Oh yeah! I ordered two cans of whipped cream as well.

I’ve never bought myself the canned whip cream for just myself. It sounded great. A little guilty gift for me.

I am planning on doing this.

So I thought I could just give her a scoop of ice cream and put the pill somewhere in the middle. Seemed pretty easy. It was, Except she would eat everything around the pill and WOULD NOT touch the treat again. SMARTY FARTY.

I tried the mango bars. Those are really good. Very good. SHE LOVED them. Until she figured out they, too, were loaded with that eichy medicine. DANG IT.

The Whipped Cream in a can was probably the best idea. I shook the can hearing the metal bead tinkering and then WOOOSSHH. I made this cream castle over the pills and tried handing them to her as is. I managed the first few times but she caught on.

She’ tucked her tail in and crept away to hide inside her “bedroom” . She tried to be invisible by the front door. Probably hoping it would magically open and she’d run to freedom.


I was getting very annoyed and somewhat very tired of this charade. So, I became the Alpha female. I walked right up to her, took Her nose and pried open her clamped jaw. I took the pills, pushed them all the way to her throat, held her jaw tight until I was sure it was down. .

Every time she looked like everything she believed in me was A LIE. IT was a 100% betrayal on my part. HOW COULD YOU????”””I’m sorry but I have to do it “ but I have to admit that I did kind of enjoy the quiet and she started going to sleep and I could start working on my emails again I have to admit I kind of liked it and I don’t know if that makes me a bad person but I really needed me time. Me time equals a good time. That equates to a great time for CHARLEY!!!

It’s finally over and I still have like a few things of ice cream well not really because I ended up eating all those ice cream’s and I ended up ordering more because I am all of a sudden addicted to ice cream I loved having ice cream as a chaser for her medicine. but now I realize it was my excuse to try a wide variety of ice cream. That and I thought it was amazing Amazon delivered ice cream.

I also found out they deliver alcohol. How convenient…. gotta try that one out now!!!


I didn’t have a chance to finish this because a major debacle with Charley and her running after a bunny.

What I was going to say in the end of this is that I don’t have to worry about eating ice cream or whipped in front of her and getting those whimpering eyes and licking her chops while I indulge because she runs and hides. She doesn’t want anything to do with either. Those two things only mean one thing. I did not plan that. But in the aftermath off the events of tonight I really don’t care if she looks at me with pleading eyes and the incessant whining. She can do it all she wants. Because I missed her And I was scared she was lost forever.


Because Charley is injured, and I’ve been told to keep her down for at least a week. Meaning no play, jumpy jumpies, no balls, no running after her bunny that LOVES to ANTAGONIZE her.

i SWEAR, EVERY TIME we head to the labyrinth this dang little bunny, tan and cute, pops up right in Charley’s view. I think I have a small video of her standing perfectly still, eyes glued on that bunny. And that dang bunny recipricates the stare. I think they were locked in almost 5 minutes. I, of course, got bored after about 2 minutes of it, and stopped filming. It would have been the same if I’d taken a still shot of her, and labeled it “5 minute stand off stare.” That is exactly how it looked.

I was kind of excited because there is this ranch where it takes dogs that have bloodlines that are that of herding. He said that not all dogs are herders. A lot of domesticated Australian Shepards/Border Collie has had their line bled out slowly to where herding does not come natural.

All I know they (ranch herders)use this method. They stick their hand out, (which it’s funny….dogs can smell your coming, but I guess there is another reason they do this) and I guess introduce the dog to the “prey”….even though it is not prey. It’s a LITTLE LAMB or a LITTLE SHEEP……(no little bunny— sorry Charley) and watch to see if the dog has this point and stare kind of thing. Where they will focus on their, er, focus, and stand rock still. They don’t just charge after it like a dragon from hell, or whatever that saying is. The dog will just stand there. Waiting. And when the lamb, sheep, no bunny moves, they are on it right away. Not pouncing or attacking, but making definite strong, quick movements and body language letting the opposer know they are in charge. It’s quite impressive.

Well, my heart does swell when I saw that Charley acts exactly like that. She’s done that with Geese, and ducks, and, small children. In which one of them moves, which happens a lot, and then she’ll let out a piercing sharp “ARRRK”. That is what it sounds like. To children, I’m sure it sounds like “I am going to eat you if you move, and you have been warned and don’t you dare….” That one is always fun because I’m left shoveling out apologies, explanations, and reassurances which sometimes makes it even more dramatic and traumatic for the children. Oh well. It’s in all good fun, right Charley?

But I am proud that she is a point and picker. I knew she had it in her.

So, I changed up the labryinth stroll and went one weekend morning where it seems as not so many people are there on the campus where the labryinth is.

We get to the edge of the entry way to the labryinth. She lunges. Oh hey, bunny!!!! Then, I see her lunge the total opposite way. Oh, hey, another bunny!!! This happened again with a full white tailed 3 bunnies in all. And they had her surrounded. And she didn’t even know.

I swear Charley is smart. Really.

We lop down the stairs to the labryinth where I almost trip and bite it as she lunged again. I have her only on her collar for her harness thing rubs up against her wound. Being only on her collar makes the leash jerk her head, which I am not fond of, and she knows it. I end up letting go because I don’t want to hurt her.

There was a gentleman standing there on the edge of the labryinth. He was looking into the trees. His head turned to me and said, “I think it was the bunny that got her.”

“Yeah,” I said. “It seems like this one bunny always seems to pick on her, same place, same time frame.”

“I have been getting to know those bunnies. You know there are more than 1. I’ve been spending a lot of time getting those bunnies to trust me.”

“I am sorry. She just gets so excited. We will be moving on. This is the first time I’ve really been able to take her out and let her play a little bit. “

We travel to the lower level into this big auditorium is the only way to describe it. It is at the bottom of this winding cement staircase with foliage and flowers all around. At the bottom is this big circular area where chairs are always propped in different ways. Somedays in a circle, other days in a lecture style rows. It has the feel that maybe it is some type of drama class. I’m not sure. We just like to go there and hide from people and bounce and kick different balls around there.

Welp, Charley gets to the bottom of the steps and ALL OF A SUDDEN does this mass switch-e-roo on me and goes barelling through the bushes. The ones with thorns. Ones with strong branches that don’t give. Just like the ones she almost impaled herself on.

I start calling her, (actually YELLING AT her) “CHARLEY, CHARLEY! CHARLEY! ” and under my breath I am muttering “I am going to actually kill you this time…don’t you realize I nursed you back from your injury and if it happens again I will let you SUFFER…..). I run up the steps and run around the corner to find her back at the labyrinth. Tail wagging. Ears on high alert. Her legs TAUT with excitement. She makes a sharp move again, and goes diving into the bushes.

The gentleman is still there. Rats. He looked my way and politely said, “I really look forward to my time with the bunnies.”

Aw I get it. I really totally do. There are certain little things I like to do that are just my own little things. Like, I have to walk the labyrinth at least 3 times a week. Or whenever I’m there.

Those little rituals are very important I realized. They kinda give me structure. I feel as if I have a disorganized purse or back pack when I leave those little things out. Well, I guess one of the signs too that makes me realize I am missing those little rituals is the fact that my purse is a mess, along with my back pack (where did I leave it?) and my room is in utter dismay.

I finally am able to somewhat corner Charley. She was standing on the steps, rigid. Eyes fixed. Not noticing anything else.

I look at what she is looking at. Her and the bunny are locked in a check mate. Who is going to make the first move. I waited and wanted to soak that moment in. Nobody was moving.

God, how precious.

It was I that made the first move. The bunny jumped and ran in the bushes towards the man. I stopped Charley from bolting after. “Here comes your bunny!” I yell.

“He’s coming this way?”

“Yep. Here he comes. Have a good night.”

I left feeling very happy and light in my soul.



Charley, after getting slaughtered by what we think was a branch, had her surgery to stitch up the flap of skin that was dangling grossly on her side.

The surgery was clear across town, in White Center. Not having a car and taking the bus is not a problem as long as it is the E line that is a straight shot to the park of horrors Charley is familiar with. Plus she has so open wound. And wasn’t feeling hot.

Luckily this security guard that worked at QFC had offered us a ride the day it happened. The same security guard I got snippy with a month earlier. I had noticed that she was following us around. She wasn’t very sneaky or inconspicuous. Big boned, thick blond hair that hit the middle of her back, and stood a good 5’11 1/2 dressed in all black with a badge.

After making several turns down different aisles, getting annoyed by having this huge shadow behind me, I hurried to the self checkout line, went to leave and HELLO! She was standing at the exit door. Just kept staring at us.

Me, and my snotty came out. I indignantly pulled out my receipt and held it up to her and said, “HERE! My RECEIPT!” I then hucked my backpack over my shoulder and unzipped it, continually being an asshole, said “YOU WANNA CHECK IN HERE TOO?”

She looked up from her phone and blinked a couple times and said “Uh?”

I walked outside, a bit confused and with a bit embarrassment, muttered under my breath about something or other to Charley.

But, get this…. she’d followed us out and was standing right behind me. I turned around, kinda curious, kinda want to go off all at the same time.

I LIKE YOUR DOG.” Quietly she said. “I CANT STOP STARING AT HER. “SHE’S BEAUTIFUL“. She continued, “I didn’t mean to keep following you but I love dogs. I have 4 of them “Do you mind if I pet her?”

AW MAN! How gross I felt for my earlier thoughts. But that opened up the floodgates and we talked and talked. I told her what I thought and apologized for being snippy with her. I even made special trips to that QFC to see her because she would absolutely fawn over Charley.

I thought about it. She lived far away and she didn’t get off till midnight. She said she didn’t mind. She just loves Charley. She has nothing to do that day. The surgery was at 8. That was ok. She gets up at 5 to work out. So I decided to take the help. I really needed Charley to be safe and feel at ease.

She picked me up at…. the QFC… and Charley kept trying to sit in her lap. Charley loves her. Charley loves love. Everybody loves Charley.

Well, Tali was definitely schooling me on stuff that kids go on nowadays. First, Tali is only 20.

I’m 50 years old and a 20 year old is driving me around. Wow.

We were talking about pot. I was telling her I didn’t have my ID so i couldn’t buy any from the dispensaries ATM. She kinda laughed and said, “oh I have pot everywhere at home. I have a “grip” of hookups that I can go to at any moment. It’s Washington. Everybody in WA smokes pot.”

God. I felt so unhip .

She met her current boyfriendthrough Snapchat. Because her boyfriend at the time left her stranded. So she Snapchats this other guy, who happened to be her now ex boyfriend s friend. Now they live together. He recently got into a horrible car accident. He suffered a TBI. Ok, another one if the club I’m in. The TBI thing. Not SNAPCHAT hookup thing.

She is incredibly wise at her age. She knew high school was such a short experience that she didn’t trip on much of the drama that went on. Her parents left her and her brother in Utah for jobs. Dad went to North Carolina. Mom to Washington state. She thought it amusing that people were terrified of her.

People always asked her if she was Mormon I was one of those. She said she never realized Utah was the Mormon state. She wasn’t religious so,……

I thought everybody from Utah was Mormon.

She told me a story about some gal in the store that was shoving frozen dinners into her shirt. The manager had taken her open bottle of vodka she was drinking as she was walking around the store. When the lady went to leave hurriedly, there stood Tali. One by one each TV dinner fell from her shirt. In perfect succession. She looked up at Tali and threw her arms in the air. “I’m sorry! I’ll never do it again!”

Her last day was the day she took Charley and I to the vets . She told me she was sick of the sexual harassment. One guy stood in the store looking at her. She then realized his hands were down his pants. JACKING OFF.

People are so weird sometimes. Gross.

During our ride to the vet’s office, George Floyd was brought up. I was trying to think if I’d heard the name of the 17 year old who had filmed his death. ( God I really hate saying that). I then brought up RODNEY KING. I said that was the catapult of everything being CAUGHT ON CAMERA.

Tali, “WHO IS THAT?” I was incredulous You don’t know who Rodney King is? I was in college at the time. We were let out early. I saw the live footage of the riots. I lived in the Bay Area so I feel it was pretty close to home. Right down the street He’s the reason that the video taping sensation took off.

I looked up the two individuals that caught those two defining moments that changed America into realizing one never knows who may be watching.

Danella Frazier for George Floyd. 17 years old.

George Holliday for Rodney King. He currently is or is going to auction the video tape.

Rodney King was filmed 20+ years ago and nothing really has changed. Maybe a teeny bit. TWO different situations yet kinda the same. Actually pretty parallel but Rodney King did not die from police. He died later by drowning in a pool, I think.



Ok. So Charley gets out of surgery. I was told 3 times, 3 times, don’t take the cone off. If I do, EXTREME supervision at all times. EXTREME.

Guess what? She was all excited about being home and wiggly and loving and I wanted to hug her back so off went the cone and into my arms she leapt. Doggy kissed and runs and laughter and hugs hugs hugs and let’s lie down because you seem very sedated Charley and I feel like holding you….. Charley! Where’d you go Charley!


Charley & I waiting for street car.


We have been slowly recovering from Charley’s wound. The vet at Urban Animal told me I had to keep Charley down for a whole week. That meant no jumping, no playing, running. Just simple walks around the block. That was it.  She did get a little hyper and her stiches cracked a bit, so a t-shirt AND her cone were put on.  I learned the first time!


Charley got stabbed. Stabbed by what I believe by a huge jagged stick. In the park. Where we always go.

It was an amazingly beautiful day so under her strong suggestions and very persistent behavior I decided it was a good day to make it all about the park and sun and fun. A total Charley day!!

I really don’t know of any other days that aren’t a CHARLEY DAY but this day I’d decided to put any slight notion that I may succeed in getting anything accomplished to rest. It was a total 100 percent commitment to CHARLEY.

Book, balls and frisbee in back pack we headed out to our usual oasis and found our usual dugout under our usual tree. First toss of a frisbee followed by a Chuck-It launch and we were off and running.

Slowly the migration of owners and dogs mid morning on a Saturday began. A lab. A doodle. A Heinz-57. A wonderful Corgi.

Being a social butterfly Charley started making her rounds meeting and greeting everyone. I’ve gotten used to people’s first reaction of Charley barreling at them with my apologetic explanation that she’s super geeky and safe, for within 2 minutes everybody can see that. An hour in She’s the park’s favorite. Complimenting her on her coat, how well behaved (uh???!?!??) she is, how sweet, and, oh how energetic she is!!!!! YAY!!!!

It’s the Corgi’s she really likes. She perked when one trotted into the park. She played with a similar one the other day. What started out as a teenager brawl ended up being tumble and play buddies all day. Maybe she thought this one was her friend from the other day. I can’t help but notice how Corgis look like flying ottomans when they run. I can’t stop giggling. I also remembered that Corgis are herding dogs. I can see that. Quick. Little ankle biters But so quick for such squatty little things.

I pretty know where Charley is at all times. I’ve heard of people stealing dogs. That’s part of the reason I let her off leash when at a park. A big one. One that I’m familiar with. Because it’s easier to grab a dog if they are on a leash. That’s the only way somebody else but me could get her. I also don’t want the leash tangling up on anything. Which has happened.

I knew she was with the Corgi. I met the parents of this one on this day. Nice laid back folks. Picnic. Blanket. Books. Sun bathing. Just enjoying their day with their dog at the park. Fun in the Sun

Well, their Corgi returned to the picnic and blanket and laid down next to the owners. Ok. Charley should be here soon. Hmmmm. Well…. ok. I yelled out “SQUISHY “ ( her nickname) and Viola!!! Her she comes running out towards me, big old snot eating grin. She was all over me, wiggles, waggles, kisses.

I was petting her and giving her love when I felt a little fur bundle on her side. Thinking it was a clump of dry grass or weeds I started to brush it off.

I turned from a happy Sunny love love Charley day to a OH MY BROTHER!!! WHAT THE F IS THAT CHARLEY? What the f IS that!???!!!


I turned her around and was met face to face with this gaping wound and a flap of her skin hanging down. I was still like what the f??? What? Who?? I demanded from her, “WHAT HAPPENED??? What did you get into?”” I knew the Corgi hadn’t done this. I never heard a Yelp. I never heard ANYTHING from Charley until I looked at it closer. She yelped that gawd awful sound dogs do when something is hurting them.

I ran into a couple of my friends on the way of traveling back to our house. They all said she wasn’t acting herself. She wasn’t her usual. Her eyes looked pained. I knew that too. The emergency vet closest to us was a 5 to 6 hour wait. Good God she could be dead by then. It didn’t help matters that I don’t have a car and rely on public transportation. That added to my almost full state of PANIC.

I knew there was Blue Pearl right where we lived. A couple people from My building helped bandage her. I went to Blue Pearl, had to call them for them to come to the door, waited 25 minutes for them to come out and say they were at full capacity. They handed me a sticky note with the phone number of a vet in somewhere. Don’t know. I needed something done ASAP!!!! Couldn’t they see that? Isn’t my dog the only one that is special??!!?? Come on guys!!!

I had to settle for their advice. Wash it. Bandage it. Don’t let her mess with it. Take her in the morning.

My Buddy Mike told me to go to this vets place where his sister worked. Walk ins at 9. I got there at 9:05. Line. The wait 3 to 4 hours.

Finally at 1:35 they saw us. It looked horrible. Ask they could do was bandage, clean and schedule surgery tomorrow.

We walked out with a bandage around her belly, antibiotics, pain reliever for they said they couldn’t shave around it she was in so much pain ( my fricking poor little girl) a beautiful fashion accessory called a cone, and 250 dollars less in the bank.

Tomorrow at 8 emergency surgery. Clear across town. 500 dollars.

She doesn’t like her cone. I think she thinks I’m doing it on purpose because I scold her when she tries to eat things off the ground. Or she tries to do something I know is not safe for her.

She can’t do either of those. Eat off the floor. Do something she’s not supposed to.

I’m not doing it to be mean, seriously Charley. I’m doing this because I have to.

This was a 100 percent CHARLEY WAFFLE day. ONE HUNDRED PERCENT.

I’m going to get pet insurance. At 9 months old and this injury and her adventurousness I’ll probably (hopefully not) will need it.

Nice tube top

My poor Charley Waffle.

Poor Charley. Poor wallet.

I love my squishy bean.

Oh my little squishy. Universe give her some ❤️ LOVE


The most devastating news happened to Charley and I yesterday evening. I had promised we’d go to a major playtime meaning fully equipped with frisbees, a yoga ball, tennis balls, and yes….Her all time favorite big blue ball (BBB) labeled “INDESTRUCTIBLE” from Amazon. Unfortunately we only know it’s partially true from the short life of the BBB.


Charley has been soooo good about recall, somewhat. A lot better than a month or so ago. So I trusted her when I said “yeah, it’s ok. Go get it “

The BBB sat in a huge tote bag from Trader Joe’s. Bright yellow and Blue. Very noticeable. Very summery. Past experiences have taught me to encase this ball at all costs. She can’t keep her eyes off of it. One time she knocked It out of my hands. Luckily it was in the parking lot so the BBB could only roll a certain set perimeter.

However, the second time I had made the mistake of dribbling it down the alley with her, soccer style. It got away and headed so quick around the corner and started lobbing down this incredibly steep block that led right into the street. A street that leads to a freeway. I’d watched in horror as she took off like a rogue agent on her mission, Her ONLY mission, was to keep that BBB In check. That dang sheep was not going to get away from her! Not on her watch!!!!!

Since then I’ve bagged the BBB if I’m to carry it ANYWHERE.

I’ve got to mention she just started getting really good, too. She’ll roll it in her own around up and down the parking lot. She even knows how to parade the BBB between the two safety cones I put out to make it act like a pen.

**********ok real quick *****for crossword fanatics…… what sound does a pen make??? 4 letters. …….. answers located bottom

So we headed out, down the alley, ball in tote, to do some herding with all balls listed above. We took a quick break by the wall for she’d just gotten in trouble for pulling so hard due to her excitement of the upcoming TOTAL AND ABSOLUTELY BALL-O-RAMA!!! She started nudging the tote bag with BBB and a slight roll started happening. It was rolling lazily down the sidewalk. She kept looking at me, looking at the tote, me,tote., me,…I finally said “go get it!” She had enough time to stop it but just in case I was speed walking right behind her. She stopped the ball but I guess the power of inertia took over and it popped on and over her and into the street.

Just as I could see her body tense in a way that told me she was going to follow it to the end of the earth I yelled “Stop!!!!” In my “you better” voice. She stopped right at the curb. I was right by her now and noticed this white van coming down the street.

It seemed to swerve a little bit, and I thought they would stop or dodge it, anything but what happened before our eyes.

All of-a sudden we hear a “WHOMP!!” The van drove right over the BBB. First shock. I expected to hear a splintery sound or a mini “POOF” as it exploded from being hit but NO. I expected them to stop and worried I really messed the van up. I was ready to pay the fines. but NO …. THE VAN KEPT DRIVING!!!! We both took off running after it as it hit the first light, I thought surely he’d see a human and a dog running and SCREAMING. NOPE. Kept going. The next light led the van to the freeway.

We stood there. I think I cried out and threw my fists in the air “NO!!!!!” Poor little Charley wouldn’t leave the curb. She kept looking as to where the BBB disappeared. I felt like she looked. I was so looking forward to doing a BALL-O-RAMO night.

So so I suppose sure to a review for the indestructible ball from Amazon yes as far as I could see it was totally indestructible it survived a freaking van attack and from far as we know of straight up freeway drive to who knows where. That was our short history with the BBB.



Charley Waffle and I are riding the bus back from the park. We are both exhausted. I was falling asleep on the bus And then I heard a thud. My phone had fallen out of my hand. That was kind of weird. I didn’t know I was fading off until saved by the thud.

We had seen Parker again, a little mini husky.? ??A few retrievers. Labs. And of course some sort of a Doodle. Labradoodle There Are several different Doodles. All I know is that they don’t shed. And I like to say “Doodle.”

There is also almost ALWAYS a breed that comes from Texas. Via Italy or Asia or South America. . Breeds I’ve never heard of. I always wonder WHY? HOW? I know how they come from Texas But why these rare breeds? Oh well. I’m always quick to find where they are from and how rare their dog is. That’s cool and if they are a rescue even better. My story of getting Charley on Craigslist for $500 at 6 weeks old from a farm almost seems criminal. Especially if I tell the story how she kneads this velour blanket over and over until she goes to sleep. probably because she was weened too soon. Was that a rescue? Ahh…. maybe from myself!

The grass is growing at the park at a rapid rate so I would look up and everybody, included me and all dogs had our nose pointed to the ground searching for our Pet’s ball. Even though it seemed today’s color was bright orange. Ours was the ragged faded orange into brown with no bounce. Anytime somebody would yell ”Who’s Ball?” I would say, “Is it a ratty orange muddy mess almost split into two?” Yep. At least I only had myself to blame if ours went missing!

I was at the far end of the park and this guy comes into the park area. I took notice because he looked like a colorful guy. Not his clothes but maybe the initial thought?? Vibe? Or I just knew he didn’t beat to the norms of blue colored group of people. Or I know…. a kindred spirit . I kinda felt I was observing the male version of me , if that makes sense. He kinda looked like an Berkeley LALAPOOLOZA (sp) Red Hot Chili Peppers, Primus, Maybe a liking of Jerry Garcia. Mix and match. Well, I guess somebody that I could relate to. Was I maybe slightly attracted to him? Was that why I wanted to talk with him?

Full Circle Day

I had one of those full circle days.  What I mean by that is some event happens during the day to me. Something that is a bit bothersome that gnaws at my conscience and I just don't feel like I did the right thing, Feeling convicted that I could have done more. One of those "if I'd only listened to that fleeting thought" or "If I had done one thing different," but disregarded. I can't stand that. It could be big or something that seems trivial to others, but just gets at me.

I got up the other day feeling pretty good. It SEEMED like my on-going mission to becoming one of the "Organized Ones" was almost about to reach a level 2 on a 5 point scale. I was putting my keys on the designated hook. My spares were now kept inside a metallic box stuck to my fridge. I was hanging up Charley’s leash the moment we walked in, on THE designated hook ALONG with her harness. I had cleaned my fridge, PUT FOODS IN their proper bins; fruits marked FRUITS and vegetables marked VEGETABLES, butter in that irritating butter bin on the side of the door. My broom and SWIFFER WET JET (by the way, reminder: don’t ever get the refill pads that say “COMPARE TO SWIFFER”.... there is nothing like a SWIFFER refill) and my DIRT DEVIL on THE HANDY DANDY hook thingY from (AS SEEN ON TV) Mike bought for me. I had MATCHED MY SOCKS (MAJOR KUDOS TO ME!!) Washed Whites with whites. Delicates , whatever those are, in cold and I let my bras air dry. I remembered to put fabric softener in time, AND SprayED and WashED as directed. Hung up my previous clean clothes that had been hanging out over a chair for a few. ORGANIZED my TUPPERWARE and JUNK DRAWER(!!!) I washed AND put away the dishes. I was feeling calm, a little bit more in control of my craziness. Cleaning house big time is Therapeutic I’ll admit. What I really was hoping for a reprieve from my usual panicky "WHAT THE?????? I know put it right there!!!!” It the last 2 minutes I'm heading out the door. Never fun.

I was able to prove to myself and quite proud when it was time to get ready for Playtime in Parking Lot. I amazingly found all the Frisbees together. They were hanging on a hook inside a a flowered bag on the side of the fridge. Her bouncy balls that disappear, re-appear, were all together IN the FRIDGE. In the side. Seriously. (I have found that works the best, otherwise it becomes a search party)….for she’s been known to find them again in the house and hide them all, thinking it’s funny. Not so funny when I have to find them. Makes playtime a lot easier with them!!!!

I was left with extra time on my hand so I’ve decided to transfer everything from my HUGE PATAGONIA back pack to a smaller back pack.

We started playing at Freeway Park that’s located smack in the middle of downtown. It was the first weekend, at least for me, that felt….. ummm… happy. I was trying to think of a great adjective for how I felt. And yes, it was happy

Yeah, it felt happy. We left the park with a great natural buzz from work out adrenaline. The good good yummy adrenaline. The one where it didn’t take seemed like I worked out. Felt light and fancy free.

I decided to go to the store so Charley could see her boyfriend, Nick.  I was actually just trying to work the snot out of her. Sometimes I give up thinking I may have some life there in the midst of it all.  I really just give in and go gun ho. I usually have a better time when I let go anyway.  
On our way there I spotted a gentleman on the sidewalk laying on a sleeping bag. It was quite warm out and, I’m thinking, he must have been hot.  He was uncomfortably warm and itchy.  He had a few layers on and a wool skull cap. Black. The cap. Oh, and the guy.  Some guy had stopped to talk with him but ended up walking to his car. I asked the man on the sleeping bag if he wanted anything or help. He asked me if I could get him something to drink. At first I thought he meant  alcohol but that’s the alcoholic in me.   I was going to even if it was for an adult beverage for I know how it’s like. EEkkk.  I remember how strangers would help me when I was in that same position but suffered from the shakes and homeless.  He asked for orange juice and a coke. No. No. Make it an orange soda.  He held out 3 dollars and I told him not to worry about it. 
Charley and I got to the store and ALAS!  No Nick!!!
Nick her “boyfriend”

That’s ok, I suppose. The only thing is I had told her we were going to see her boyfriend and she gets so extremely excited and starts this little whistle thing in her throat. She looked around and up and down when we walked in, looked at me and seemed confused. Lawrence was working, and he has witnessed her love for Nick, so he half-heartedly tosses her a Milkbone. Nothing even close to the treatment Nick showers her with. It’s absolutely adorable, yet so crazy how she actually looks as if she’s melting on the floor. She is allowed behind the counter and takes her job quite serious. She will stare at the customers and won’t display any actions of friendliness. Just business.

I got a couple of orange juices and a bottle of orange soda and proceeded to pull out my wallet. I proceeded to look for my wallet. I proceeded to quickly look for my wallet. I proceeded to pat my back, side, front pockets. My heart and head proceeded to pound. I left my wallet, had to have, at the park!!!! I said, “I’ll be back!” and started running back to the park. We went to where we were playing and desperately looked around. There was a gal sitting exactly where we’d been and I asked her hoping she might have seen it. She seemed very confused, so I just kind of threw my hands AND hopes out. We walked home, and I was very sad. I had just replaced both cards just days earlier. My ID. My bank card. Some money. I was really really bummed.

Plus, on the way back to my apartment I remembered I’d told the guy I would be right back. I know how it is, for so many people say that and don’t come back. I was going to go back to where he was but I didn’t want to be a disappointment for him. It was hot outside. He really was thirsty. Shoot, I was thirsty AND hot and I wasn’t laying in the sun with all black on a blanket with no shade cover. I just felt horrible.

I called Mike and just kinda stammered and slobbered like a little girl. I wanted to know what was wrong with me. See, I’ve been losing things a lot lately. My memory, short term, sometimes long term, is incredibly bad and it’s incredibly embarrassing. Mike tried to tell me with my TBI and everything else, with the new, well semi-new Charley Waffle, and that I was trying to get organized stuff like that happens. He felt so bad for me, he told me he sent some money to my PayPal. That made me feel worse. Because that is not what I wanted or why I’d called. I was bummed.

After beating myself up in a good way, I calmed down as soon as I just started plotting the next day and what I needed to do in order to get all of that back. Ok, I’ll be out the money for my ID. Which I’d just bought. I’d be out the money in my wallet. Well, I fortunately had not brought all my money, so look at the positive aspect. Charley and I went to bed, and I had no choice to put it out of my head.

Morning came, and upon waking up I started to get ready to take Charley out. I was overcome by this thought to go back to the park and just double double check regarding my wallet. Plus, I could get a little morning play time with Charley this way so maybe she would be a little bit more tolerable as the day wore on.

We walked into the park at one of the entrances, the one we always go to. Came up to the first grassy knoll and OH MY GOSH. Do I see something sticking out of the grass that is flat and black? No way!!! I didn’t want to hurry too much and get my hopes up. I kept blinking my eyes and straining to look closer. My vision has slipped a bit since I hit 50. It started happening at the age of about 45, and all of a sudden it has gotten way worse. Almost like overnight.

As I walked up to this object my mind would not allow it to believe that what I was staring at was my wallet. NO WAY. I stood there, looked at Charley. “OHMYGOD” I picked it up, opened it, and almost gasped as I saw all of my cards where in the wallet. Holy cow. There was no money in it, but that was ok with me. I couldn’t believe it.

I played with Charley with laughter and cheer and newfound energy. Yay!!! Yay!!! Wait til I tell Mike. Where I found it is not where I’d opened my purse. Probably somebody found it and threw it on that particular knoll. There had been tons of people out the evening before, and the chances of my wallet disappearing were far greater than what happened. Even that morning there were little groups of people walking through the park at 7 a.m. I think because the weather had been so warm and was expected to be warm that day as well.

I was totally elated. Mike couldn’t believe it. Neither could I. Still really can’t. How lucky was that? Was it luck or serendipity or what??

I started going to the store and thought I could still buy the drinks for him, but he wasn’t anywhere to be seen. I vowed I’d try later on that day until I found him.

Well, later in the day I did. I was walking by a bus stop and I saw a man sitting on the bench with a blanket wrapped around him. I had this feeling come over me as I stopped and asked him if he had been lying on the sidewalk yesterday. It was him. I told him I was the gal that asked him if he wanted anything. He said, yeah, I was wondering what happened to you. I asked if he wanted anything now that I’d gotten my wallet back. He said no, then asked if I smoked. I told him I’d left my smokes at home, which I had, and he said, “No, I was just wondering because, here, I wanted to give you one.” Wow. I asked him his name. Chris. He said he’s always around there. I promised when I saw him again if he wanted anything, I still owed him. We had a little brief conversation. It was light and airy and fun. I said goodbye, see you later, and he said the same. I felt really really good.

What started out a good day, that turned bad, ended up being good 24 hours later. Now that is a FULL CIRCLE DAY in my book. Anybody else have those just made for t.v. moments? It was really cool.